Drums fingers, sighs, stares out the window watches the grass burn, turn to straw. Looks at computer. Tea time…
Type, write, write, Po’ete mau dit… po’ete mau dit… my words are as abstract as the cricket’s song now. Cricket legs are everywhere, the heat shriveled them up, they lay like tiny pixie sticks across my drive. Plays with puppies, walks cautiously around the wicked cat, green eyes glued to her gold as I pass, prepared to battle, visits Cath’s blog :sigh: her too.
Answers phone, goes over builder’s design, catches seven mistakes… :brring: ignores phone ringing, cranks up music–phone rings again–crank it up higher…
The past arrives present.
…the world stops, then inhales deeply and releases a blast of hot air which suffocates tropicals:
…sitting on the 2nd story of an encased bougainvillea wrought iron veranda of an old building… a cold waterlogged white sheet is wrapped around me. My delicate tea cup is cracked but filled with Absente, the smell of floral invites another sip. The overhead, weathered gray slate of the roof shades me, yet imprisons the heat, holds it eternal. The cool threaded lisle melds with flesh, I loosen my wrap and look up… He hands me a rose. I do not care for roses, it is sunflowers I love, but the rose has such beauty; a red so rich and deep, it is black, its texture; thick peach-velvet unlike any I’ve touched before. I am in awe… I do not like roses…
but alas, this is now present… I can not sit out on my porch, wrap myself in cold sodden sheets, drink narcotic drink or touch rare roses. …the neighbors and sense and sensibilities, being what they are…
I will not miss my neighbors.
Listening to soundtrack City of Angels.
Contemplating on putting audio book of A Breath of Snow and Ashes.